Gave up on my bad luck, There’s no room for it Typify the warning signs Won’t ever change your mind Won’t change your mind Soft in my heart But my shell is laced With concrete and barbed wire The only way to talk this out Is to turn around and remain insignificant So I’m talk, talking to you Can’t get through Your eyes wander round the room Like nervous spotlights in the night sky Fluff your pillows, try to get by On four hours of sleep Another second Another wasted breath You’ll never let this die and go to rest Soft in my heart But my shell is laced with concrete and barbed wire The only way to talk this out Is to turn around and remain insignificant I think and think about the things you said You can clear this up, But when it comes to it The only time I feel okay is when I’m covered in my bed You're always Confirming my suspicions That I always talk But you'll never listen So do what you wanna do I'm not what's wrong with you Yeah I think I'll sit this one out Like I have a choice You're always leaving me out Soft in my heart But my shell is laced with concrete and barbed wire The only way to talk this out Is to turn around and remain insignificant I think and think about the things you said You can clear this up, But when it comes to it The only time I feel okay Is when I'm covered in my bed

There's never been an easier way to say goodbye When all my feelings are twisted and tied up on the inside I'd ponder apathy and how I got this way A disembodied voice with so much to say But that don’t mean a thing Because I’m dead in most regards Social isolation A cataclysmic disregard But maybe this time you'll notice the lights flickering outside And how the wind blows so much colder when he's kissing you goodnight Oh just this time I'm gonna haunt you You sit alone in your bedroom Eating Ben N' Jerry's and binge watching old cartoons It's nothing new, it's nothing new And it's a fact that you don't care about the way that your hair falls into place like you've got it all figured out How's the taste of three day old chocolate cherry in your mouth I heard you told your friends that you don’t wanna see me Hanging on a rope that's just a thread by now Couldn’t bear the fact that you would ever leave me Still I trace the words right from your mouth And maybe I could be a contender for poltergeist of the year I’d be front page, newsstand worthy I’d throw away all my fears And in the interview they’d ask me How I ever made it this far And I’d tell em I learned to get past all the times you blew me off

Overbearing confidence Never got me far from this Now my body's wired in To feel trapped in shaking skin You've got an eye for it Sink deep to fit right in Pulses flowing through your veins I'm the scissors cutting at the strings To let your heart run free You'll never realize the truth that you perceive Happiness is never my first option When your hand's around my neck and I can't breathe Spinning, falling down can feel so awful When you try your best and nothing's what you get What you get is a foolproof plan To take down all the businessmen Who make their living scamming people of what little time they have And I feel pure joy as I'm drowning in the quicksand Of the hourglass I carved with my own hands Happiness is never my first option When your hand's around my neck and I can't breathe Spinning, falling down can feel so awful When you try your best and nothing's what you get It's what you get I'm elated by the fact that I always second guess People telling me I'll never fulfill all my promises To the ones I left behind Take a bow and give it time I'm a stepping stone away From the next mountain left to climb Happiness is always my first option When your hand's around my neck and I still smile Spinning, falling down happens so often So we'll get back up and laugh it off We'll laugh it off

Daydreaming of kissing you inside your coffin Nail the lid shut You might think that I'm a curse But you're much worse than I could ever be If I let you, you would bury me Throw the dirt and say a blessing Won't die again I've learned my lesson Don't think that I could ever see you You're a ghost Walking through the walls You're trying to get into my head I wish that you would just stay dead You're a ghost Floating through the halls You're trying to crawl into my bed I wish that you would just stay dead Apparition, not superstitious But I can feel you on my skin I hate this feeling, you're unappealing Why won't you leave me alone? Why are you haunting me? Just let me rest in peace Don't think that I could ever see you You're a ghost Walking through the walls You're trying to get into my head I wish that you would just stay dead You're a ghost Floating through the halls You're trying to crawl into my bed I wish that you would just stay dead You can keep me up at night If it makes you feel alive You can call me all you want I'm not answering the phone again

Spent the better part of last night Writing out the pros and cons of a life I've lived for so long The glass is never empty until I pour it out It always does so well until I pour it all out on the ground Watering weeds that I'll pay to get removed Regrowing obstacles I'd rather not choose To get involved with I've always been bad at confrontation Well it's hard Living on the highway I'm in a lane all of my own Maybe you can tag along We'd both be vagabonds Yeah, that would be more than ideal I just thought it'd be easier to tell you I just thought it would be easy I just thought it'd be easier to tell you that I'm not scared anymore And I just want to tell you about how much I love you every day of every week Every night that I can't sleep is one where you're not by my side I hope that you know I'm all right Well it's hard Living on the highway I'm in a lane all of my own Maybe you can tag along We'd both be vagabonds Yeah, that would be more than ideal I’ve been carving your name in my ceiling Just hoping maybe you’ll hear it I’ve found home in unfamiliar places Time spent alone, time on my own Just know I always see your face Wherever I go Well it's hard Living on the highway I'm in a lane all of my own Maybe you can tag along We'd both be vagabonds Yeah, that would be more than ideal There's a pocketful of misery here There's a pocketful of misery that I will sew shut I won't let it bother me again No I won't let it bother me again No you won't let it bother me again

All the rooftops and city streets I've walked upon Still feel beneath my feet All the rainy days Days spent away Make me contemplate How I could never breathe But it's hard to move forward When you're running on wet concrete All the bright lights The quiet nights You suffered through To make it a table for two It's always been so simple But it's always something new The pessimist in me Brings out the optimist in you Forever dark blue When all you wanted was a mascot Someone to hold your hand And pretend That recently You haven't seen A change in me It'd do you good to forget But it's hard to move forward When your life's a second guess I'd do anything To shed my skin and realize that who I am is Better when I'm with you The pavement outside your house Is cracked and broken now But I'll spend years filling in all the space All the spaces All the gaps that remain Every syllable of your name Resounds in my head And the pavement is wet again I'm always running on, always running on quicksand